in which Kitteh shrinks away oodles of fluff

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Srsly time

So I have started and stopped a strict “on the wagon” approach to this about 17 times since January. Today, we get serious. Well, actually, YESTERDAY we got srs – right int he middle of Super Bowl weekend. And I am pleased to say I am one half pound down this morning, which seems to be more or less standard if I (a) eat teh Noms all day (which I am very good at); (b) control teh dinner to a “trying to lose not maintain” level (which I have sucked at the last week); and (c) don’t have any snacks (other than a Nom, if I am actually hungry) after the kids are abed (which I got under control last week). So basically, l spent week before last getting off of “real” food lunches and back on the Noms, last week getting my night time eating back under control, and this week I am all about controlled dinner and dropping pounds. I really want to lose five pounds this week. That is doable, though aggressive.

I also was thinking that I am basically 30 lbs down, more or less, depending on the day, and it has made a TREMENDOUS difference in my clothes, the way I feel, the way I can move, everything. So my next goal, which feels very managable, is to do the same thing again. Just repeat what I did in half of August and September. If I do that in February and March, I should be down another 30 lbs. And I am willing to bet that would take me down another whole world of improvement in clothes and energy and moving.

Thirty pounds at 3 lbs per week would be 10 weeks. Ten weeks would put me at April 10 – Spring Break week (well, the week after). Sounds good, yeah? I should be in the middle of warm weather clothes, and can ditch all these “wow I have gotten huge” sweaters for good!

Ho hum

I need inspiration.

I am at that point where the flush of excitement that came with finding “something that actually works!” is gone, and with all the business travel (I’ve been on the road about once a week since October, either with work or a holiday) I have definitely crossed over that mental threshhold from “have to eat the Noms, I paid for ’em” to “can eat the Noms later, right now I want real food to chew.” At the first of January, I was massively into making more progress – that whole “first of the year” energy. Then came a week home in the snow, two weeks of business travel to the frozen north, and way more client meals than I should have indulged in. This morning, I was at 294 (still down a total of 27 lbs). I’m wearing the next smallest size from when I started, and things fit better and look better and I feel much better. Now it is time to take it to the next level.

Some things that should be motivating me are:

1. I get a break from travel, but in the spring I will be going back to Cincy and would love to fly up there WITHOUT needing an extender for the plane flight.

2. Spring clothes. I would love to “ungrow” all of my really big fat winter clothes here at the end of the cold weather (whether that’s now or six weeks from now) so that I can GET RID OF THEM and have the serene, peaceful feeling of empty closets and drawers. When spring arrives, I can try on the ones I have from last year, pitch the big giant winter ones and any spring/summer ones that are too big, and assess what I actually need that will shrink with me.

3. Physical Therapy. Started it yesterday, now have a good understanding of what was happening with my knee. I have always had VERY loose joints. Not quite freak show loose, but almost. And after pregnancy (with its accompanying relaxin hormones) and a year of bed rest and atrophy of my smaller muscles, my kneecap was basically free to float around every which way. Gross, huh? So when I walked on the treadmill, it would slide up or down and then GRIND until it went back to where it belonged. (VERY gross. Sorry.) So two things we are doing: 3 x a week I have PT for the next six, which consists of strengthening excercises and time on the recumbant STAIR STEPPER (wild, I have never seen one) all designed to wake up and rejuvenate my muscles surrounding the knee so that I can do weight bearing work without injury.

The good news on that is, no permanent damages appears to have been done and the PT dude thinks I will make very fast gains because I am otherwise strong and have a high pain tolerance. It also makes me feel better that I was right – the pain I was experiencing was not normal “work through it” pain, it was “stop hurting yourself” pain. I was afraid I was just being lazy and not pushing myself enough, but it turns out I was right to be concerned, so that’s a relief. (Not to mention, it’s a relief that I am not going to have to “push through” that kind of pain to get better — sure, the PT hurts, but not like that, and even after 15 minutes of “climbing” and 15 minutes of muscle isolation, I had NO pain last night or this morning other than your standard muscle soreness after a work out – and that’s a really welcome change!)

4. My husband is talking about taking a long weekend and running away together, perhaps on our first cruise, to celebrate our 20th anniversary of our first date (which is on Feb 9). That’s incentive right there to be smaller, yes?!

5. As the weather gets better, opportunities to play with the kids increase. It would be awesome to be able to do that this year instead of tearing up with pain when I spend more than a few minutes on my feet!

5. If losing the first 30 lbs made me feel and look THIS much better, what will another 100 do for me? 🙂

OK, I’m feeling better. I need to keep those goals IN MIND and get focused. Any suggestions on how you get motivated/focused? I can use all the inspiration I can get!

Which reminds me, what I really want is to photoshop a picture of my face on a thin body so I can really get that image programmed into my head! Anyone know how to do that?

[cough cough]

On Monday, I finally went from “have a cold, feel teh mizable” to “throat closed up, chest hurts, better see doc.” On Tuesday, I powered through and battened down the hatches, and then on Wednesday went to doctor. Yes, I have bronchitus and an assortment of miscellaneous infections. I attribute this to the weirdly fluctuating weather (cold/snow, then 50s and sunny), which seems to lower my resistance, then proliferate the germies in the warmth. And it doesn’t help that the holidays were a pell mell mad rush. But whatever, at least I went to the doc before “a little fluid in your lungs” became “walking pneumonia” this time.

Since (for me, anyway) bronchitis is one of those “cure worse than the disease” kind of things, I am reluctantly swallowing horsepills twice per day that make me feel worse than before I started. And I have nasty stinky antibiotic-smelling pee – in the words of my son, eww dross [gross]. And since I am chugging the water because of the Mucinex, i get to smell it a lot.

On the bright side, between teh sicks and teh drugs, I have virtually no appetite and transitioning back to less food is relatively easy. 🙂

As of today, I am down the 2 holiday pounds and half of another. I have two out of town meetings in Jan, so I am trying to decide whether to start my personal training thingie in between them, or just wait till February. On the one hand, I can’t start anyway until i get over this respiratory crud, which will put me right at the start of the first trip. On the other, no time like the present (figuratively speaking) and if I get a routine, perhaps I can use the hotel fitness equipment to keep up with it. Thoughts?

Also, I have decided I need a slogan. A motto. A mantra. 🙂 Something along the lines of “Just Get Through It” but with more optimism. 🙂 Open to suggestions! Ha!